After last nights post I had another realization. Not only do I push my horse through scary stuff, I do the same to myself. I have done it for as long as I can remember, when something is too hard for me to deal with I will 1st-try to ignore it, when that doesn't work I will down play it (try to make it less important than it is) and when that doesn't work I will push through it and hope I make it on the other side in one piece. The scary issue hasn't really gone away, I've just avoided dealing with it. My horse won't let me do that anymore. You can't ignore a 1000lb animal that is scared and needs to get away. He is going to take care of himself if I don't. If I had slowed down the other day and waited until we both felt okay about walking to the barn I would have changed everything for the better. I think the big lesson here for me is that you can face what is scary, possibly become more confident, and there is a good chance you can make it out on the other side feeling pretty good. It amazes me that I have been doing this for so long and I didn't see it. Now that I have finally figured it out can I fix it? I'm going to do my best to try.
I don't think I would have ever figured this out without my horse. They are truly mirror images and if we would take the time to listen to them we would all be much better off. I talked to a good friend recently about self worth and why we humans don't always feel we deserve good things. I can't answer that. I know that I have been working on becoming a better listener, a better horsewoman and just all around working on me because of the love I feel for this horse. He tries so hard for me and has come so far in the short time I have had him. I have an obligation to do that for him. But I don't do it because of the obligation, I do it because I want him to be happy, confident and to have a good life. And through all this hard personal work for him he is giving me more than I could have ever dreamed of. I am becoming more confident, happy and I hope a better person. I think I am getting the better part of this deal.
Horses are amazing teachers.
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The Horsewoman's Prayer
Dearest God in Heaven,
Give me the strength to guide my horse, make my hands soft and my head clear. Let my horse understand me and I him. My heart you have blessed with a special love of these animals, let me never lose sight of it. My soul you have gifted with a deep need for them, let that need never lessen.
Always let my breath catch as the sun gleams on an elegant head. Always let my throat tighten at the sound of a gentle nicker. Let the scent of fresh hay and a new bag of grain always be sweet to me. Let the warm touch of a soft nose on my hand always bring me a smile. I adore the joy of a warm day on the farm. The grace and spendor of a running horse, the thunder of it's hooves makes my eyes burn and my heart soar, let it always be so.
Grant me patience, for horses are harnessed wind and
wind can be flighty. Let me not frighten or harm them,
instead show me ways to understand them. When I pass from this world, send my soul to no heaven without them,
For this love you have given me graces my existence and
I shall cherish it, and praise You for it, for all time. Amen
Author Unknown
Dearest God in Heaven,
Give me the strength to guide my horse, make my hands soft and my head clear. Let my horse understand me and I him. My heart you have blessed with a special love of these animals, let me never lose sight of it. My soul you have gifted with a deep need for them, let that need never lessen.
Always let my breath catch as the sun gleams on an elegant head. Always let my throat tighten at the sound of a gentle nicker. Let the scent of fresh hay and a new bag of grain always be sweet to me. Let the warm touch of a soft nose on my hand always bring me a smile. I adore the joy of a warm day on the farm. The grace and spendor of a running horse, the thunder of it's hooves makes my eyes burn and my heart soar, let it always be so.
Grant me patience, for horses are harnessed wind and
wind can be flighty. Let me not frighten or harm them,
instead show me ways to understand them. When I pass from this world, send my soul to no heaven without them,
For this love you have given me graces my existence and
I shall cherish it, and praise You for it, for all time. Amen
Author Unknown
He knows when you're happy
He knows when you're comfortable
He knows when you're confident
And he always know when you have carrots.
~Author Unknown
He knows when you're comfortable
He knows when you're confident
And he always know when you have carrots.
~Author Unknown
"Courage is being scared to death, but saddling up anyway".
by John Wayne
by John Wayne
Somewhere in time's own space
There must be some sweet pastured place
Where creeks sing on and tall trees grow
Some paradise where horses go,
For by the love that guides my pen
I know great horses live again.
~Stanley Harrison
There must be some sweet pastured place
Where creeks sing on and tall trees grow
Some paradise where horses go,
For by the love that guides my pen
I know great horses live again.
~Stanley Harrison
2 comments:
Great realization!
Indeed, we can't give our horses any more than we can give ourselves. We can't recognize in our horses any more than we recognize in ourselves.
It's been a over a week since I posted that and I feel like so much has changed. That spot in the road isn't so scary anymore, I am breaking it down into little pieces for both of us. As soon as I feel the slightest amount of fear we go back to the where it feels safe. I knew all along that was the right way to deal with lots of things but got so caught up in so many moments that I just pushed (both of us). That spot in the road is going to help me and Chance grow in so many other ways! I'm actually grateful for it now!
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