New All Time Low

I've hit an all time low that is a little overwhelming. Chance has an abscess, so everyone is telling me. I'm so sick and tired of having horses with injuries and illnesses. Broken bones, lyme disease, cushings, laminitis. Okay so an abscess is not life threatning, but we are going on 6 days now and the usual time I'm hearing that an abscess lasts is 3 days. I'm tired of pouring my heart and soul into my horses to have some accident or illness ruin it all. I'm tired of spending thousands of dollars and not even be able to ride. I'm just tired.