I rode my horse

I really needed to get on Chance before the clinic to help with my butterflies. A came over and I did it this morning. When I saddled him he was okay, but not so sure about the cinching up part. As I would reach for it he would walk away. So we would walk until he felt better. The saddle even fell off his back once. It hit his foot as it came off, he just looked at it with no reaction. After some walking and the saddle coming off a couple of times he was ready for the cinch. Just loose at first and more walking, a little tighter and then some trotting and cantering. He looked great, moved great so I decided it was time to get on. First I just layed over the saddle and played with the stirrup on the other side. Then did it from the right. More playing with the saddle and then I got on. There was no reaction from him so we walked around following A while she helped Chance with his new job, helping us pick up rocks. It's a silly little job but it keeps my mind busy and it gives us purpose. We are making quite a pile of the most beautiful rocks! We walked everywhere and even through the barrels. My stirrup hit one as we went through and made quite a noise, I think the barrel even moved. Again, no reaction, we were pretty focused on the rocks. After about 10 minutes we stopped and he started to yawn, yawn and yawn. That's when I new we were finished. So I took my feet out of the stirrups and stretched my legs, sat for another minute, got off and loosened up the cinch.
For the 1st time in a very long time being on my horse felt good. Other than the butterflies at first it just felt good. I think the word content fits well. The trick is now to remember this feeling and carry it with me when we ride. I have to promise never to take us too far too soon. Baby steps and I do believe we will be riding everywhere together.