Friday, November 7, 2008

apology

I apologized to Chance today. I told him that I was sorry I haven't really believed in or trusted him. It made me feel better to say it out loud, really get it out there. And now it's gone. He was really listening when I was saying it. I could feel it. And when I finished and walked away he left the fresh pile of hay I had just put down and followed me. I started cleaning his stall and he just stood there watching me. So I stopped and walked back to him, Call me crazy but I swear I heard him say, "I'm sorry too, it's okay." I told him he had nothing to be sorry for and that he is a great horse. Then he went back to his hay. It all sounds a little crazy and even if he really didn't say what I heard, I felt it. And I have to say my heart feels a lot lighter tonight. :)

1 comment:

Lasell Jaretzki Bartlett said...

Doesn't sound crazy to me! *g*

What you shared reminds me of the word and concept of "congruity" -- I think it's Linda Kohanov who has talked at length about it in her books. When we are congruent -- our thoughts and words and feelings all match -- horses know it and respond openly to us. No mixed messages from us. We make sense to them when we all match up inside ourselves.